Feb. 8th, 2011 05:35 pm
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So, Monday evening, my dog, Muttley, was put to sleep. He was very old and cancer-ridden and in pain, so it was the right thing to do. I know that. But it's still unbearably difficult to let go of a pet. I've been crying off and on since I was told that he was going to have to be put to sleep, and I'm still crying off and on. I miss him. We had Muttley for over ten years.

It's just...I keep remembering things. Like how mom and dad would always make sure that I had Muttley in my room on Christmas Eve so he wouldn't scare "Santa" away. And how my sister and I made up some silly song about Muttley. I even remember all of the words. We used to give him belly rubs and he would just get this look on his face, like he was in heaven.

I remember how Muttley was my dog. He always seemed to like me the most. He'd listen to me most often, he'd usually sleep in my bed, sometimes he'd even just follow me around for no particularly good reason.

I remember his bark. It was the weirdest thing I'd ever heard. It sounded like he was dying and in extreme distress every time he barked. It scared us the first few times we heard it because we seriously thought that something was wrong with Muttley.

He survived being hit by a car and having his hip broken. He survived several bouts of pancreatitis. He swallowed tampons that swelled up in his intestines a few times that had to be cut out. He was diabetic. The vet diagnosed him with cancer and told us that he wouldn't last for more than a few months. Well, he lasted years. I was convinced that he'd survive a nuclear apocalypse. But everything finally seemed to just converge on him all at once. And we just couldn't stand to see him in the pain that he was in.

But I still miss him.

Mr. Muttley was a very educated puppy.
He went to school, and then to college,
and became a very famous scientist.

I love you, Muttley.

Date: 2011-02-09 06:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I very sorry for your loss. I'm sending you good vibes.

Date: 2011-02-09 04:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you very much. I greatly appreciate it.

Date: 2011-03-09 03:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
So I've failed ridiculously at getting on lj(and most other things, T.T) for the past few months but I'm just getting back to checking everything now and catching up on what I've missed and...:(

I'm so sorry, Ali...I know I said that before, but...I know how horrible it is to lose an animal you love. Deciding to have my dog Duchess put down was absolutely the worst decision I've ever had to make, and losing's something that sticks with you. Evie was killed two years ago but I still think about her all the time and I still half expect her to be welcoming me home with her incessant "Mom I hear your car and you haven't petted me yet!" barking, :/

Everything gets easier with time, but...when you love them so much, they're so missed once they're gone. *huge hug*

Muttley was a wonderful boy...he was always such a sweetheart, and he really was such a trooper. I remember the first time I met him back when I started working at the clinic, and I remember your mom and Nikki telling me they were worried about him then, and he did so well for so long despite all expectations. He was an amazing boy, and I know everyone that knew him will always remember him, <3


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